So far, so good (I think!)
It’s been almost a week since I set my first weight loss goal, so I thought it was time for at status report.
I don’t know how much weight I’ve lost yet (if any!) since I haven’t been home since my last post. Hopefully I’ll be able to drop by my apartment this week and jump on the scale. But anyway, making small changes to my lifestyle is also a big part of the proces, so I can give you an update on that part 🙂
Also, I’ve been thinking a lot about what kind of content I want on this blog, because it mainly has to be something that inspires me to keep moving towards my goals. And what I find truly inspiring and motivating is seeing other people’s success with losing weight, so I thought about dedicating a section to before/after pictures and stories. I’m a frequent visitor on reddit and some of the subreddits there have some impressive weight loss stories I’d like to share on my blog. So I will be adding a section for this on my to-do list 😉
My biggest problem with food is that I eat too much. I love food and I always empty the plate regardless of the amount of food on it. And whenever I make smaller portions my eyes are still hungry when I’ve eaten. So my approach this past week has been to eat more “green” vegetables and completely cutting out rice, potatoes and rice from my meals. This way my plate still looks full because the vegetables tend to take up more space. I actually have no idea if it’s a myth that rice/potatoes/pasta are bad when trying to lose weight, but either way it can’t hurt to try it out.
The meal changes hasn’t been too difficult, and I haven’t left the dinner table feeling hungry yet – so that’s a start! The size of the portions is something I’ll keep working on, one step at a time.
Sugar cravings! I’m still having a very, very hard time managing those, and it doesn’t help that I absolutely love chocolate. So far I haven’t managed to keep the cravings in check, and pretty much every day of the last week I’ve had some sort of candy. I’ll have to find some healthy alternative to sweets that can take the edge off of the cravings in the future.
Even though I’ve thought about doing more exercise, I haven’t actually done anything about it yet. Shame on me! I’m not joining the gym before I get more confident in myself, so I have to exercise in other ways. My initial plan was to follow a running program, but after reading up about it online, it seems that I shouldn’t do it yet. My weight is simply too high, and my body would be overburdened and I’d just injure myself if I start running now. So I’ll start walking instead, and probably set some monthly goals for this as well. I need to get some proper walking shoes before I start, and I can’t afford that right now. Hopefully I’ll find a way anyway, so I can get started soon. (I totally feel like I’m making bad excuses for not exercising)
And the random stuff
Even though I just started this journey and am a long way from my goal, I still think it’s important to focus on self-esteem and confidence. For many years I’ve been sporting a very bland look as if I’ve tried to blend in with my surroundings so that no one will notice me. If people don’t notice me they wont see how fat I am. I don’t go to clubs or anything of that kind because I’m terrified of people noticing me and poiting fingers at the “fatty” (also I hate hangovers, but that’s not the point), I don’t wear colorful clothes because that makes me stand out, I don’t get up in front of a bunch of people and talk, I don’t wear makeup because what’s the point? I still look fat either way.
All that sh*t has to stop! I need to feel better about myself and be more confident in my looks (even though I’m super overweight). And my first attempt to do something about it is probably really silly, but I’m doing it nonetheless. It’s “make and effort and stand out”-week, which means I have to make an effort to look my best every day of this week (and hopefully I will like it so much that I just keep it up afterwards). This week includes things I don’t normally do like: dresses, jewelry, makeup and colors!
I’m very excited to see how I feel at the end of the week – right now I feel awesome!